pooo.

saturday

softball party was funn.
came and then did nothing for a while
lisa kept saying steph was hot and had the figure and everything
haha. she always had.
and she wears those kind of clothes because in thailand america school they all do.
i guess shes changed. cos last time she was like me like we didnt wear those kind of clothes
mainly boyish crap but now shes become a little worldly. heh. i dont know what to be like around her sometimes.

anywayy. just crapped about. later we had the barbeque. was funn. got pushed into the water by shanise -mkes bratty face. heh. shanise i did not push you first i had no intention of doing that! poo. the water felt all oily. later it got more oily cos coach kept dunking everyones shoes inside haha ew. then fang and the rest who werent already in the water pushed coach inside with his shoes and socks. we were really polluting the pool. haha.

then we threw his sock up a tree branch hahaha.

me erica shanise sonia jessie had our hopeless barbeque. heh. cos lisa and fang and some others wouldnt let us help. then they screamed at us for eating all the food and not helping to barbeque. roar.

so then some kind ppl using the barbeque pit next to ours lent it to us cos they didnt need it anymore. so we mananged to barbeque some chicken and sausages and pork thingies haha not like i did much. anyway then we ahd our hopeless feast hahaha. it wasnt too bad heh. then played in the pool somemore. erica and jean had their sit on someones back and fight compeition haha. then we took photos and coach and fang sprayed coke and stuff on us and threw orange skin and stuff. the place was really messy after that. anywayy. it was fun.

i wonder why the truth must be hidden; isnt truth meant to be told? so why must it be kept from us? maybe the truth will hurt but not knowing is worse. not knowing makes me pissed, like...putting my right shoe one before my left. i want to know, i dont want to be kept wondering wandering. and the others should know too because..well i dont know but i dont know. i dont know...i dont get anything anymore.

today

finallyy freedom. chinese tests makes me feel like im trapped in the cage. chinese test was horriibllee. the front part was really easy but not the comprehension! it was sooo harrddd sigh. i just know im going to fail. i was like spending so much time wondering what on earth the paragraph meant then i looked at my watch and i realised i had only SIX minutes left. so i just scribbled some crap off the passage then scribbled some crap about i think that commercials can give us knowlege and EXPERIENCE oh mann. i am so shittedly ddeaaddd.

anyway whatever. its just that..everyone in class is so smart i dont know.
the english teacher is so annoying.
"no talking please, huh, if you have any questions ask me."
-sticks head right and left
"*name* was that you talking? no talking, if you have any questions ask me"
"*name*no talking please, did you ask about this question, huh, is that what you were asking?"
ahhh! just shut up pleassseeee. if you even breath loudy she'll tell you no talking please, if you have any questions ask me. honestly. grrr.